Regeneration.

I love to write. I used to dream about one day becoming a published author, and quite frankly still do. Writing is my catharsis: It helps me put my thoughts in place and balance my emotions. All of that being said, why is writing often the last thing on my list of things to do? Why I have recently began to avoid writing at all cost? 

I am graduating college in less than two months. This is one of the most stressful times of my life in which I could greatly use some catharsis, yet I deliberately choose against it. Could it be that in this time, I don't want to figure myself out? Would I honestly rather wallow in the uncertainty and chaos that is currently my life...yes, yes I would. 

Why is this? Why would I rather be living in frantic chaos instead of taking steps to figure out my life? I am refusing to accept that this part of my life is over. I am refusing to accept that I need to pay more attention to certain areas of my health. I am refusing to accept. Writing causes me to process. Writing causes me to usually come to some form of understanding and other times, it leaves me in a state of confusion. I would rather remain trapped in this stage because it is comfortable than move to an area of better understanding. 

This is the way that I have been living, in short. I am refusing to remain in my pity puddle and to begin to crawl my way out. I love blogging...I love the community and the accountability that it creates. I am going to attempt to keep this up once a week. To chart the understanding and journey as a soon to be graduate with so many possibilities in front of her.

Challenge Accepted.